The Snow that falls onto your Skin von abgemeldet (~sono yuki ga kimi no hada ni ochita~) ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: ~sono yuki ga kimi no hada ni ochita~ ------------------------------------------------ author's note: dedicated to each and every single tear I shed since Lareine officially pronounced their disbanding... corny, I know... well, this story isn't one of my best... but I somehow like it... thank you for your comments, and yes, it is okay to tell me whatever you feel about this little peace of night work... anyway, let's proceed to: The Snow that falls onto your Skin ~when you hold my hand, then you also hold my heart~ Kamijo had been holding Mayu‘s hand in his own on stage before but never had he felt anything so close to the anxiety his heart now dwelled in. The guitarist stood right beside him, his gaze on the floor, his hand limply within Kamijo‘s slim and graceful fingers. It somehow felt like Mayu did not want to look at him to return the eye contact Kamijo was nearly desperately trying to build with the younger man. Mayu just constantly looked away from him and then even turned to stand with his back to Kamijo, refraining from even acknowledging him the way Kamijo suddenly felt he had wished for. He had stepped next to Mayu because he had felt the sudden urge to touch the man, to Make contact with his warm skin, to bury his eyes in the younger man‘s, maybe even to whisper his name like the many times he did before. Perhaps to finally tell Mayu what he felt for him, what he had always felt and always would feel for the man he had known for the longest time. But with Mayu turning around he did not dare to raise his voice, so he just sang his song banning all of his secret longings to the words that he had always wanted to convey to Mayu: „I have always felt that special about you, as if I was only complete within your presence… Like a rose that could only bloom when it was cared for by the one person its petals were made for…“ When Mayu turned again, he reached out for Kamijo to intertwine their fingers. Like he knew what Kamijo had always wanted him to know. His skin gently brushed across the vocalists wrists, then he tightly took his hand and finally shared a glance with the other man. Kamijo continued singing, but the next moment he opened his arms to embrace Mayu from behind. Then the snow began to fall and Kamijo soon felt drenched and wet for even though they were on stage the snow was real for it was winter‘s time outside. The droplets of melted white glistened in Mayu‘s light brown hair and Kamijo felt a sudden rush of attraction towards the younger man that continued to look at him with these deep eyes and Kamijo felt his face flush. All the time he had not stop to sing and now he tightened his grip around Mayu‘s slender shoulders, afraid the other man might turn away all too soon. When the song ended he looked at Mayu again. The man had never been so beautiful in his eyes before. His cheeks were a little flushed like Kamijo felt his own must be looking and the younger man had this kind expression on his face that Kamijo was always able to see when they had played this special song where he particularly enjoyed to touch Mayu. He could not imagine performing this song without being so close to the younger man. So he always took his hand and strongly wished for the guitarist to understand. But Mayu never seemed to and no matter how hard he tried to convey these words to Mayu‘s head he knew he never succeeded. So he left the stage after the song ended like he always did, never noticing Mayu‘s attempts to reach out his hands when he walked past him, not feeling the other‘s looks in his back trying to tell him not to leave, trying to convey love and understanding, to hide anxiety and shyness. Mayu saw him leave again and also again he felt like he missed the chance once more to finally confess. He made a note in his mind to tell Kamijo the next time, not to let the moment slip away like it had been doing all the time they had shared the stage. Next time he‘d tell him, he thought, knowing that he never would… Just like Kamijo never would… It had never been their fate to get together and would never be no matter how much they‘d love each other. Some love will never come true... c‘est ca (22/3/2008, 1:43 a.m.) **************** Stay tuned for the next crime… Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)