Not good enough   von Gepo
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                          Kapitel 11: Fumbling around
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Tatsuya had gone to the supermarket and bought a package of XXL condoms as well
as lube. He was an Omega, sure, that did not mean he was prepared for someone
Atsushi´s size. He wore a flexible jeans and a wide shirt that should be easy
to remove. He had also showered, cleaned himself and brushed his teeth. He
should be perfectly prepared now.
Atsushi´s preparation had evidently been the laundry which he was still folding
up by the time Tatsuya arrived. After a kiss Tatsuya helped to fold some shirts.
The room was clean, so maybe Atsushi had vacuumed. From that one kiss Tatsuya
knew that he had neither showered – he still smelled from practice – nor
brushed his teeth, so Tatsuya sent him to clean himself up next.
His boyfriend came back with nothing but a towel on his hips, smelling of
toothpaste. Tatsuya had never thought of toothpaste as sexy but in this context
it aroused him. It might also have something to do with the droplets of water
glistening on Atsushi´s skin. So Tatsuya sat his boyfriend down and began to
explore.
Atsushi was a bit strangely proportioned. His legs and arms seemed too long and
thin for his body. His muscles felt as drawn as cat muscles though endurance
wasn´t his strong suit at all. He really was underfed, Tatsuya could count
every rib, even the spine was visible. He touched every available muscle and
Atsushi stretched like a cat to enjoy the sensation. His boyfriend really loved
to be touched. If he had been a cat he would have purred. He rolled into
Tatsuya´s hand or stretched to present more skin or asked for scratches or more
grip. He was painfully aroused by the time Tatsuya touched his genitals and
moaned obscenely. Tatsuya decided not to care about the volume and to give his
boyfriend a handjob.
Atsushi smiled up at him in contentment and drew him into a kiss while he rode
out his orgasm. The boy really enjoyed sex to it´s fullest, no hesitation, no
fear. It was cute and sexy at the same time. Tatsuya decided to discard his
shirt and said: “Now it´s your turn. You explore to learn what I like and
dislike.”
“I like this game”, the giant told him and smiled a strangely innocent
smile.
“It´s an adult´s game for boyfriends. You´re not supposed to do this with
anyone else.”
“Okay.” Atsushi sat up and tried his best to mimic what he had felt and seen
from Tatsuya. His kisses and touches were magic on his skin.
He told Atsushi that he really liked his head held in one hand. He liked his
hand held in Atsushi´s. He liked to have his nipples kissed – not licked! –
and hands sprawled on his hipbones. He learned that he really liked to be
manhandled. He did not turn at all, Atsushi just rolled him wherever he wanted
to have him. Atsushi even kissed his toes which really tickled. He just
commented: “You have really smooth skin.”
“I use a good body lotion.”
Atsushi blinked twice but decided to go back to exploring. By now he held one
foot in his hand and used the other to brush over Tatsuya´s inner shin. He went
up over the knee and Tatsuya sharply drew in his breath. Atsushi looked at him
in alarm and asked: “Was that bad?”
“Nah, it´s okay, it´s-” He shuddered. He could feel his heartbeat in his
asshole by now. “Just … gently and slowly, okay? Please don´t make any
sudden movements down there.”
Atsushi nodded and kissed his inner thigh. He looked at Tatsuya´s genitals and
seemed to study them before poking his penis with one finger. He asked: “Why
is that so small?”
The Omega fought down the urge to kick Atsushi in the face and answered:
“It´s not small, it´s normal. Yours is huge.”
“Kuroko´s was small too. Akashi is about your size but his is big down there.
Why is that?”
Tatsuya sighed and reminded himself that Atsushi really meant nothing bad by
this before answering: “Akashi is an Alpha, Kuroko and I are Omegas. Alphas
are born with bigger and longer cocks because they are meant to impregnate
Omegas. We Omegas have looser holes that wet themselves. You do not have
that.”
“Really?” Atsushi spread his ass cheeks and locked at his hole. “It´s
really wet.”
“That´s slick. It´s there so that we don´t hurt when an Alpha enters us.”
He had not planned on making this a hands-on sex education lesson but maybe it
was a good way to explain a few things to his boyfriend. “Because your cock is
so huge, I need to be stretched before we can have sex.”
“Oh?” Atsushi looked up at him and back down to his hole. “I did not
stretch Kuroko before I entered him.”
“That must have hurt him a lot.”
“Oh.” His boyfriend thought for a moment. “I must apologize then.”
“Do that when you apologize for raping him.” He tensed up remembering that
part. He told himself off for that. This was no rape. Atsushi had been very
gentle up to now. All was well.
“How does stretching work?” His boyfriend asked him unaware of his inner
crisis.
Stretching. Good point. Did he want that? His asshole was still throbbing. Oh,
who was he kidding, of course he wanted it. Atsushi had long, thin fingers, he
definitely wanted those up his ass. He spread his legs and told his boyfriend:
“You begin with one finger, best your middle finger. You slowly insert it.
There should be a little bump a few centimeters down the passage. Go look for
that.”
“I really like boyfriend games.” Atsushi grinned and held up one hand. He
tried to curl his fingers so that only his middle finger stood but it seemed to
be too much coordination. He needed to use his other hand to get his fingers to
work like he wanted them too. After a bit of fumbling he pushed into Tatsuya´s
passage with his one finger.
Tatsuya drew in a sharp breath and reminded: “Slowly!”
“Sorry.” Atsushi went slower and poked around for Tatsuya´s prostate.
“Good. Like that. A bit further.” He had been right, that finger felt
heavenly now that it was past his ring. “Oh yes, there. Up. Yes!” He rode
out a wave of hormones. “Relax, relax … down. Good. This works in the way
that you press up and relax again. Like- ah!” He instinctively pressed down on
the finger but Atsushi seemed to have understood, he lowered the pressure again.
“Yes, that´s exactly it.”
His boyfriend pushed a few times and had to grin at every reaction and every
moan he could draw from Tatsuya. He stated after a bit: “You like this,
right?”
“I like it very much.” Tatsuya´s breathing had gotten deeper. “Can you
add another finger? Your pointer would do well.”
Atsushi concentrated on his hand but it seemed to need more coordination than he
had. He drew back his fingers which had Tatsuya moan in frustration. He smirked
devilishly but was soon distracted by his own fingers. He sniffed at his slicked
up middle finger and licked it after a moment. Tatsuya just moaned at the
visual. Damn, Atsushi was sexy like this. At least until he talked: “It tastes
like nothing at all.”
“It´s slick, it doesn´t need a taste.” Tatsuya spread his legs further.
“Can I have two fingers, please?”
Atsushi looked at his hole and coordinated the needed fingers with his other
hand. This time he was slow in going in – on which he was praised by Tatsuya
– and needed a bit until he found the prostate again. He did not need any
instructions on how to press against it and soon Tatsuya was nothing but a
quivering mess under him.
“Three now?,” his boyfriend asked.
“Ah, no, before- oh yes … can you stop for a sec? Man, I can´t concentrate
anymore … you´re good at this, Atsushi.”
That one just grinned.
“Three fingers need some more stretching first. Please scissor your
fingers.”
Atsushi just blinked and looked down at his hand. Was that too much
coordination?
“Like this.” Tatsuya made the motion with his own hand.
Atsushi tried and was able to scissor all of his fingers on that hand, so
Tatsuya felt the other three against his thigh.
“Yeah, like that. Now you go in and out, but not completely out. Yes, stop,
yeah, in again. And out. That´s it. Slowly.”
His boyfriend´s forehead was wrinkled in concentration. His hand coordination
really needed more training. He slipped out once but was able to get his finger
in again and proceed with the scissoring. Finally Tatsuya told him to use three
fingers and showed him the correct hand-gesture with his own hand.
He had never had three fingers inside of him before. His one-night-stands always
wanted a quick number, so they had entered him after a bit of scissoring.
Feeling Atsushi´s fingers felt unbelievably good though and he debated asking
his boyfriend to make him come like this. The choice was taken from him when his
boyfriend pressed down on his prostate with a beat that had him moaning,
writhing and coming in under a minute.
Atsushi looked pretty smug again. Tatsuya just closed his eyes to take a deep
breath. Wow, damn, that had been good. This really wasn´t sex, it was making
love. It was taking time and looking after the other. It was- he suddenly felt
something thick pressing against his entrance.
“Stop!” He sat up.
Atsushi flinched back in surprise and sat back. His eyes wide, his mouth open,
his cock red and glistening with a bit of slick at the tip.
“You can´t just enter someone without asking, Atsushi. That´s rape,
remember?” Tatsuya scolded him.
“I am very sorry.” His boyfriend lowered his head.
Tatsuya took a deep breath and told himself to calm down. Atsushi hadn´t meant
anything bad by this. He was a horny teenager and he knew the mechanics. He had
really made his boyfriend wait. After another deep breath he explained: “Just
because you stretched someone doesn´t mean you are allowed to enter them. Even
if you are allowed to, you need to wear a condom.”
“Do we have a condom?” Atsushi cautiously looked up again.
“I bought some for you, yes.” Tatsuya fished for his jeans and got out one
condom. “Do you remember how to put one on?”
“We put them on bananas.” His boyfriend looked rather lost.
“They are meant to be put on an erect penis.”
“Why didn´t we put them on penis...ses then?” He wrinkled his nose, unsure
about the correct plural.
“Because you are not meant to show your penis to anyone other than your
boyfriend.” Tatsuya took out the condom. “Now look here and remember how to
do this.”
Though he asked himself how Atsushi was to do this correctly with his lacking
hand coordination. He put the condom on his boyfriend and explained about the
reservoir and how to hold it when entering someone.
“Am I allowed to enter you?” Atsushi asked afterwards.
Tatsuya looked into his eyes for a longer moment. His boyfriend was really
looking forward to this. He had done everything Tatsuya asked and done it
perfectly. He had learned a damn lot about pleasuring his partner in one
evening. Shouldn´t he get a reward for that? But sex wasn´t a reward. On the
other hand, Tatsuya was well-stretched and relaxed. No better time than now.
He sighed and said: “Lie back, I´ll show you how to do this without hurting
the other.”
Atsushi immediately complied. He even held his condom like Tatsuya had shown
him. He really, really tried his very best here. Tatsuya took the bottle of lube
and began to distribute it on his boyfriend´s penis while he explained: “I
have a lot of slick but your cock is really huge, so it´s best to be sure. This
is lube. It is like slick and helps with the passage.”
Atsushi nodded but Tatsuya wasn´t sure if his boyfriend was really still
listening to him. Tatsuya kneeled over Atsushi´s hip and slowly lowered himself
while saying: “The tip is the hardest part. It really hurts. Once it´s
through, the rest is easier. But that means that you should stop after the tip
and wait for your partner to adjust.”
The tip pressed against him and it really felt like being split open. Atsushi
was huge, huge, so fucking huge. Tatsuya breathed through the pain and finally
felt the tip slip into him. He stopped and took a few deep breaths.
“It really hurts?” Atsushi looked up at him with concern.
“Yeah, it does. It will get better with time.” Tatsuya smiled down at him.
“But you need to be really careful and slow when you are the one deciding on
the timing. You can hurt someone with your cock, it´s much above average.”
Atsushi grabbed Tatsuya´s hips and helped him to stay up. The Omega thanked him
for that and told Atsushi to slowly lower him. He wanted to trust his boyfriend
in this. The other was really careful with him and reacted to the expressions on
his face. It took half a minute until he finally sat down on his boyfriend.
“Wow, you´re really something.” He felt that cock right up his spine. It
was a hot, pulsing rod that felt like it pushed up to his lungs. Where normally
cocks reached barely behind his prostate, this one felt like it was thrice as
long. He wanted to feel it move, feel that tip tease his prostate, have that
warmth spill inside of him- no, bad Tatsuya, he did not want to get pregnant.
“I´ll slowly move to get used to this.”
He pushed up and down, supported by Atsushi´s hands. Finally he just stayed up
while Atsushi held the tact by bringing his hips up and down. Tatsuya nodded
more to himself than to Atsushi and sat down again before lying on his chest and
said: “Can you turn us around, please?”
Atsushi sat up with one arm around him and asked: “Turn where?”
“You turn, so that I lie on my back and you lie above me.” Tatsuya smiled
patiently while his boyfriend thought that through. Finally they came to lie
down like he had asked. “Good.” Though it was a bit strange to look at a
chest instead of a face. “Now it´s your turn to move. You start slowly and
get faster with time. Don´t hurt me, big guy, okay?”
Atsushi started to move and really was careful. After a few strokes he sat up
and said: “I want to see your face.”
Tatsuya just smiled at him and found this the cutest thing Atsushi had said all
evening. He grabbed one of the pillows and arranged it under his hip. His
boyfriend took that as his cue to continue. It was much better like this and
Tatsuya was finally able to relax.
Atsushi would not hurt him.
Atsushi looked out for him.
And Atsushi was really good in bed with Tatsuya´s instructions. Tatsuya closed
his eyes and let himself fall into the motions. So this was trust.

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