By my side von April_Jones (Dean&Castiel Poems) ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: By my side --------------------- Drown me in your ocean tide, Burn me in your graceful light, Drag me in your falling fight, Rate me in your darkest right, No matter, just stay by my side. Don’t look at me all the time Or I can‘t pretend all is fine, Pretend you did’t make me whole. Do you recognize my whacked soul? ~ In your touch I thrive, Isn’t much, just my life. Regardless down you dive, Ensure it’s me who‘ll survive, You dragged me up almost too late, Never believed in things like fate. My second birthday, that date, Realize I never really celebrate. ~ The streets are getting colder, Still I feel your hand on my shoulder Like I kept it in me, your ardent ember. Not only your mark my soul will remember. My next life began in the middle of September And ended with you at the fifth of November. Yeah, they were hard and rough, But twelve years are not enough. ~ Desperately I held myself up strong, Pretending it’s not you to whom I belong. I was blind and wrong. You had me all along. How could you see my soul shine bright, When there’s so much it has to hide? I never had to be tough by your side, So I let myself be weak. Your eyes I’ll always seek. ~ Let me drown in your ocean tide, Let me burn in your graceful light, Let me fall in your highest flight, And tell me everything’s alright, Say in the end you’ll be by my side, Look at me just one last time, And let us pretend all will be fine. Don’t you know, you‘re my sunshine? Don’t leave me in the dark, be mine. ~ I didn’t know you could feel this way. What would I give for one more day, There’s so much I have to say You never knew, I hide too deep. I’m sorry, I was too weak. Still your eyes I always seek. Hope when I close mine it’s you I‘ll see And the day will come we both be free. ~ I didn’t catch you falling constantly. You gave up everything for me, Your faith, your home, your loyalty, Your brothers and sisters, your family, Your principles, your dignity, The war and an entire army, While I just sharpened my knife. You sacrificed your life. ~ I wish I said it back, Revealed all cards of my deck. I need you, but words lack. In front of my eyes you faded away. Never wanted you that price to pay. I hope you can forgive me one day. My body in the ground they‘ll lay, With you in Heaven I will stay. ~ I will drown in your ocean tide, I will burn in your graceful light, I will turn in your endless flight, I will hurl in your stormy might, In the end I will be by your side. Till then look down on me in time, And I will pretend I am almost fine. Faithful I will never stop to pray, Till I come home to you someday. . . - Dean Kapitel 2: In your light ------------------------ Watch me, I’m falling Not like you, I‘m crawling When it comes true, the biggest of fears I’ve got nothing more to spent, no tears In front of the world‘s eyes, let me hide Don’t waste on me your light Lost things can’t be found There’s nothing to be bound ~ Once you said, you and me, it’s profound Since then, me it’s never stopped to haunt Only seen your vessel, you’re my friend You’re my brother till the end How long can I hold this masquerade Will I stay blind till it‘s too late ~ Catch me, I’m falling My demons are crawling I damn my childish fears Too weak, can’t show my tears There’s too much I have to hide Through my walls, can’t see your light I’m lost, don’t let me be found For still I deny we are bound ~ Put your hand on my deepest wound And listen to my weeping sound Let me feel the aching pain And renew your initial claim Don’t let go again, make me whole And take as a burdening gift my soul ~ To you I’m falling At last I stop crawling Gone are all those fears Down my face, are these tears There’s nothing I have to hide All is vanished in your light Now I’m lost and found I give in to our bound Kapitel 3: To the tide ---------------------- Still it’s you I’m calling Until all is falling Can you hear me In the blue of the sea It’s still you I see ~ Standing here, on my shoulder your brand Watching waves, with my feet in the sand The ocean always comes back to the land Like at the horizon the earth meets the sky Never letting go, never saying goodbye ~ Let the gust Take my voice like dust Where the wind goes And your light shows It’s never ending dusk ~ Forgive me, I was deaf to all your calling Forgive me, I couldn’t stop your falling The grains of sand ran through your glass Couldn’t catch them, they were way to fast A little longer for us, they didn’t want to last ~ Grace holder You were a soldier So I didn’t have to be You set me free Now I’m lost ~ I couldn’t hold the line you have crossed I didn’t know how much happiness would cost It slipped through our fingers like the sands If we tried to carry water with our hands In the rushing tide is where it always ends ~ The abyss is calling Want to let go, just falling Into the blue Lost my anchor too I lost you ~ To the tide Kapitel 6: If we collide ------------------------ I was taught, no, trained how to behave To my mask and armor I was a slave But all it needed was a single wave To finally feel what I truly crave ~ You wore oceans in your eyes And in your grace the skies I was scared to swim and scared to fly For our depths and heights I couldn't deny ~ I've always known how to keep my distance Faced your love with nothing but resistance But against my walls you will evermore win Under the weight of your words they cave in ~ The line we walked was thin It got out of my hands and under my skin Too much to be just friends Too late to make amends ~ The heart wants what the soul demands Though I wonder, if we ever had a chance Under surface, I let you sink in, deeper down Is this how it ends, will I watch us drown ~ In waves of doubt you make me breathe And see what hides underneath A reef built from fear and hope and grief When you leave, I've got nothing to believe ~ I need you like air and water So I let your tide pull me under I let your storm carry me away Don't care if I see another day ~ If you're the ocean, I hope I'm a river In your surge I would find my forever At the end of my days we'd be together All I did was take, let me be the giver ~ When I'll fall, would you be the ground While breaking I'd be safe and sound By losing my breath I'd be found As my shreds you have bound ~ If we collide, there'll be no thunder or storm Sometimes I wonder if I could be reborn Inside I am torn, could you heal my wound Are my prayers forlorn in the empty profound ~ If we ignite, there'll be no fire to mourn Stopping being a liar, will be my dawn For you, I want to be true and brave And bury my armor in your grave ~ When I tied every atom of me With yours, I would be free We were walking on a wire Would you dare, take me higher ~ When I fall for your oceans and skies There'll be no disguise, no lies, no price No more goodbyes, no tears in your eyes Peace will rise as darkness dies ~ I got your heart You'll get my soul You tore me apart I'll make us whole Hosted by Animexx e.V. 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