Today
Hallo ihr Lieben,
hier gibt es nochmal was Neues, ich bin mal wieder kreativ ^.^ diesmal sogar länger als der rest...glaub ich jedenfalls...
Ich arbeite parallel zu diesem Gescheibsel hier an einer ziemlich großen Geschichte, die wahrscheinlich nie fertig werden wird ^^" aber gut, genug davon ^.^
Ich wünsche Euch viel Spaß beim Lesen! Über kommis und kostruktive Kritik freue ich mich immer, auch Heiratsanträge sind willkommen ^.^
so far <3
SilverFish
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Today
Today I fell in love with you all over again. The funny thing is that I didn`t know I ever loved you in the first place. But I guess I did.
What is really weird, too, is that I havn`t seen you for almost a year now. I haven`t talked to you for almost ten months, havn`t hear anything at all from you for way too long.
From the moment I saw you, you were special to me. Your smile, your voice, everything about you. You had everything I was looking for. Although I wasn`t supposed to be looking at all.
It hurt to be with somebody else, and it was even worse to see you with somebody else, it hurt. And then your head would turn, and you would look at me, with that look that said that sometimes you were looking, too, searching.
A few times we both found what we were looking for in each other. For a glorious moment the world disn`t matter, we were together, and nobody seemed to be looking. But of cause they were looking, and talking. So we both went back to normal.
And now? Why am I thinking about all that? Well, because I just saw somebody who looked just like you. Same smile, same voice. And all of a sudden everything came back to me. Like a big wave, overwhelming. It rushed me off my feet, and now I sit here. With you on my mind. Again.
And although I`m on my own now, free, I still feel guilty for that longing for everything you are, that I hide in my thoughts, and the careful lines I put down in this book.
Today then, as if it was fate, the news reached me. You are not with her anymore. There`s somebody else, somebody I don`t know. These news are like dry wood in the fire of those foolish hopes of mine.
A relationship, so new, maybe not so serious, maybe a chance for me?
I wish I had been there. Still, I wander, if I had stayed home, would we be as close as we are now? Would I even be free of him?I doubt that I had had the power to leave him, or the other way around. Just thoughts swirling through around in my head.
I can`t wait to see you again. See your face. Hear your voice, your laugh. I long to feel that hug, that you give only me. The way you play with my hair, the way you swirl me through the air.
Will it be the same when I come back? Is there going to be a place for our little games?
Today I don`t know. Today changed everything. And why is that I can`t stop thinking about you? Why is you face chasing me?
I guess I fell in love with you all over again, didn`t I?
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Vielen Dank fürs Lesen und bis bald! <3
